Day 121 - Stormy Emotion

Been a long day with little relief. I'm exhausted and emotionally spent as well as physically tired.
I have caffeine pumping through my body and it irks me, like oxygen fuels a fire.

Dark storm clouds over Pittsburgh today kids.
I just hope I take some friends from this place, because I really like the kids here.

I finished something in Photoshop today using the liquify tool. which is basically a really complicated pencil and I drew an intricate image using color. It's awesome.

There's no time left for losing, when we've already lost what we have to lose.
And when you become the currency to me,
I'm not just letting go.
Your scar is still there babygirl.

Day 119 - School's Back

Second Day at Point Park University in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania.

I love it here. It's hard to adapt because I'm the only one from Jersey. It';s really different, everyone speaks differently and reacts differently, and it's just interesting, but it makes me feel a little outcasted. The surrounding area is mad interesting though. It's complicated I suppose.

People can change things. Words can crumble days.
And actions can manipulate lifetimes.

Day 113 - Almost Out

It's been a lot of work with school, not going to lie. But even with a sprained ankle I kept it real and checked out an abandoned buiding on Saturday. All 11 storys of it.

We climbed half a mile into the sky twice, slid across a rusting metal tube 70 feet in the air with no reiling, and lived to photograph it.

This school year has ben pretty incredible. All I really have to say is that this world is getting smaller, and old memories in these buildings are getting eaten alive by wrecking balls and tractors each day, Seize the moments you have to explore and procreate.

There's another country down the street from you. Go explore it.

Day 109 - Almost

I'm a good person, and I know that. I just hope soon other people know it too.

I love this place.

Day 108 - Oh My and He's Back

It's been a while. Instead of posting 39 photographs of the days i've been absent from this, i'm going to post a few that really explain what i've been through.

Life has been, interesting for me. I've come to the revelation that time doesn't stop, even if you take a photograph. That may seem simple to you, but psych-wise, it's a really big deal. I've got a lot to look forward to, and i've done a lot in the last few months.

I've taken on a lot of creative ideas and projects. And i'll share the ideas and such with the world. It's funny I say world, because although this is available to billions of people, it's seen by maybe one or two.

FOR PHOTOGRAPHERS :

When shooting at night or in dimly lit areas, set your shutter to bulb in manual, and your flash to rear. Fire the shutter as quickly as you can while holding the camera steady, and you'll get perfect color and light, everytime.

FOR EVERYONE

Love doesn't wait. Don't assume it will.

You have an entire other country down the road from you. Go explore it.

Day 68, 69 - Life Saving Flash

The man sat in the deep hallow hall, with the sound of the choir reverberating off the chandaliers and the glass panels with saturated colors. He was a killer. A paid killer to keep lives safe he took other lives away, oh what a concept he found that to be. He sat with his back to the stage and his head down, resting on his knees. He was unseen to the hundreds of people intently listening to the music since he was sitting on the floor, away from everyone in the first row. He could feel the vibrations of th speakers behind him. He felt alone except for a nice old african american lady who hummed and rocked to the music, her eyes closed and her mind wide open.

He breathed in, and see he was dumbfounded. Because what he saw day in, day out he learned to only fear God, and not the weapons of the weak, and especially not the weakness of the heart.

But here he cried, silently under the roar of the organs and the violins and the pulsing piano and the powerful electricity. His heart trembled for that girl in that lonely lagoon, it was wishful thinking. He;d never been able to feel the tears that tore ruts into his skin, for he feared not the weakness of the heart.

But now, oh now he was free. And the man left that night and swore never to shoot anyone ever again, even if his life depended on it.

Day 66, 67 - In The Morning

Abandoned but not Forgotten

Day 65 - Watch and Change

Life, you're a funny person.

Give us hope and drop us only to catch us right before the spikes.

But dude, I can't tell if you caught me
Or if I slipped through your fingers,

Like your friendship is slipping from my mind.

Day 64 - Southern Film

For the cover or a magazine, which one?

- Jake.

Days 62 and Day 63 - Flying oh Disturbia

Nanannanananannannana and now it's over.

So today, I thought I was going to die. Like, I was almost convinced that my father was dead, and I was about two minutes away from putting myself in direct danger to protect my Father, who had already evaded the situation.

I take pictures at abandoned facilities, and this one was quarantined for toxic soil and water waste. I started taking pictures, and found my way around this magnanimus structure when my dad disappeared. Couldn't find him anywhere. Then, some random kids on ATVs came riding through, and those things sound like raging chainsaws. When your emotions are already hemmoraging due to adrenaline, this stuff gets scary.
But the photographs were worth it, and there were moments when I just felt at peace, watching the building being reconsumed by violent bulging vines as they broke glass and climbed in through the reopened windows.

Thousands of chain link fences forgotten by the owners, never recognized by their creators.

Photographers are the modern cartographers; remapping the world.

One abandoned plot of land at a time.

Day 61 - Hang

I finished the poster for save the rainforest,

that's pretty much the legitamacy of my day.

I also read a beautiful story in creative writing today but I don't know who it's by.

Every society can be modelled off of a city. It'll help you understand people.

Open your eyes to your surroundings, and see other angles.

Because the only way to defend your point of view,

is to understand the oposing one.

- Jake

Day - 51 -60 - Memories on Fire

All these lives pass before you when you walk the streets, and I find it crazy to think how many people affect you at once.

How many people have the potential to change the life you live forever, and how you pass them muted everyday for fear.

I guess it all comes down to fear, a blind fright that something negative will come from throwing your emotions like a life preservor into the sea, and watching to see if anything grabs hold

Because eventually you'll just pull it on back, and it'll be harder if someone latches on, but oh so worth it.

oh i will Never Forget These Years.

Day 50 - Warped

I went into New York City with my photography class today. Missed all of school for it. It went a lot faster than last year, and I only saw two exhibits at the MoMa in like, two hours. But it was pretty awesome, and I had a great time.

And about twenty minutes ago I was overcome with this feeling of sickness, ah. It was remarkable how quickly the feelings overtook me, and now I'm having trouble seeing straight.

Ah life, you're a funny guy.

What is true to me may not be true to you,

And what is true to you may be true to everyone,

but me.

Because see, i'm different, not what you think

So don't sync your ideas to me like a machine,

You can't link your mind to mine, because you see,

I'm me. You're you.

And then life starts over anew.

Day 49 - On a Whim

*The First photograph actually, the fire singed the hair on my arm, my camera lens almost got lit up.

This entire weekend was constructed through a web of last minute plans. All of them were worth it. Whether it was my Dad showing up at my friend's house and coming into the bathroom while I was showering to tell me to hurry up,

Or if it was watching flames rise tens of feet into the air and being obnoxious teenagers

I love life. I swear it's all up for me.

If you steal my sunshine.

Days 44-48 - This won't happen again

Science is the currency of discovery,

Creativity is the currency of philosoph

And Creative Science is the currency of the world.

Quite the week. I didn't stop taking pictures, and will endeavor to make haste with the posting of said photographs back to a daily basis.

Love you, whoever you are

Days 40 - 43 = JKHFDASKLGFAKG

Don't be afriad to play the game, even though you may lose.

That tree stump is the tree that was a few posts earlier.
Everything eventually dies.

Day 39 - I Can Wait

Good day. Colder than the others. Yesterday my thermostat read 80. It's 53 degrees outside. The weather needs to stop having it's period.

Tomorrow my town is having the Saint Patrick's Day Parade, even though it's April. We got rained out the day it was supposed to occur. Come to think of it, that's the day I took the SATs.

In school today we had a guest speaker during my free block. I was about two minutes away from not going, since I can go anywhere during my AEP block, but I decided to go.

It was one of the most life changing presentations someone put on for me. And it taught me a lot about life in general. It really showed how everyone is connected and CONSTANTLY affecting one another. I think that's beautiful.

It could be a lot worse. I love my life.

Day 38 - Plagued by Joy

..still 80.